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I Want a Wild Ride

Our Ladies Bible Study at our church has just started a 9 week study using Beth Moore's DVD series "The Inheritance".  We just started this past Monday and I've been processing and praying about what she talked about for the past few days.  She asks us on the video "Do you want a wild ride?" And, then she says, "Well, it's not a wild drive, it's only a wild ride if someone else is driving."  I've thought about that statement and thought about my own life.  You know, I can tend to be a control freak in certain areas of my life. :) I think we all have tendencies to hold on to control.  It feels safe.  We often feel like we know what is best for our lives and if we give someone else the steering wheel they may take us somewhere that is uncomfortable.  I like comfort, I like to know where I'm going and what time I'm going.  I've always been a dreamer and a goal setter.  I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up, what I would ne

We Leased Our House!

I want to thank everyone for praying for us!  We received a phone call from our realtor on Tuesday of this week and she let us know that a wonderful family wanted to lease our home.  He is a pastor, they have 4 kids and they just moved here from Georgia.  Ultimately we wanted to sell our home, but God had other plans.  I prayed that whoever bought or leased our home that the home would be a blessing to them.  So, it is a win win for both of us.  They have a great home to live in and we don't have to make the payment! YAY!  This probably is better in the long run.  We will more than likely make quite a bit more money on the house a year from now than we would have if we would've sold it this year.  All of the builders will be done building in our area, so we won't have them to compete with. They want to move in on Monday, so we are headed to Texas tomorrow to clear the rest of the stuff out of the house and have the carpets cleaned.  Tomorrow is also our 10 year anniversar

Introducing Pink: Enid First Women

Pink is the women's ministry at Enid First Assembly of God! The past few years God has really been stirring in me a heart for women and girls.  There is so much that we face as women that we rarely talk about because we often feel like we are the only ones dealing with that issue, when in fact there are probably many others going through or who have gone through the same thing.  We deal with self esteem issues, feelings of inadequacy, we often carry the weight of the world on our shoulders, we struggle with depression, hormones, fear...the list could go on.  Beth Moore says that we as women fear so much because we feel so much.   We do feel a great deal, well, at least I do. :)  When we came on staff at Enid First in June of this year, that passion began stirring in me even more.  God has really also laid it on Mel's heart and mine to connect people.  It's so easy to just come to church on Saturday night or Sunday morning, say hi to the people we know and then walk out


This past weekend our church started a 4 week series called "Transformed".  Each week we will show a video of someone in our church whose life has been powerfully transformed by Christ.  While watching those videos and sitting in the services this weekend I reflected on how Christ has transformed my own life and how He continues to transform me on a daily basis.  Sometimes when we get caught up in the busyness of everyday life and all the chaos going on around us, we tend to forget what He has done in us and what he can do in us. I shouldn't have the life that I do today.  It's only by God's grace that I have the amazing husband that I have or the incredible children that I have.  When I really think about it, it overwhelms me and brings me to tears.  I was on a path that was going to lead me to a life of heartache, anguish and pain.  I made so many mistakes.  I hit one of the lowest points in my life 14 1/2 years ago and that is when I knew I didn't want to

We're Enid Residents!

We are now Enid residents! It feels sooooo good to not be traveling back and forth to Texas every weekend. There is a peace in all of us now and the chaos seems to be gone. We can breathe again! The rent house is great. The girls will make comments every once in awhile that they miss our old house, but they are adjusting. They are sharing a room here because I need an office and this only has 3 bedrooms. They love sharing a room, although there are days where Abbie wishes she could get away from her little sister when they are fighting. :) My mom was here for almost a week to help me unpack. I'm almost done. I couldn't have done it without her in this amount of time! I'm ready to be unpacked & settled so that I can get back to work & really jump in with the church. Our house in Texas still has not sold, but I just know that it has to be right around the corner! Having faith is not easy, it's a daily commitment, but as I've said before, each day

Spring 2009 Photo Shoot

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We're Packing!

It's time to bring you all up to speed! We are officially moving to Enid, OK on August 1st. Last week we decided that we had to make a decision even though our house has not yet sold in Keller. School starts in Enid on August 12th and that is only a few weeks away! Also traveling back and forth every week is taking its toll on all of us. Rentals don't stay around very long in Enid, so the day this house came open we went to look at it and took it. It was the right price and a decent, clean house. We will lease it for a year and then buy something next summer. It will give us a chance to save up some money and really decide the area that we would like to live in. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed as I REALLY LOATHE packing. I've had to do it one to many times. We are moving one week from tomorrow and I have yet to pack one single box. YIKES!! Mel is only home for two days, then will return back to Enid and then he'll come back on Tuesday and help me Tuesday-Frida

Having Faith for This Moment

I've had a major breakthrough the past week. I finally feel like "me" again. It's amazing the roller coaster of emotions that I've been on since March and for the first time since then I feel like I'm really learning to completely have faith that God is in control and that I don't need to worry. See, it's really easy to say that you have faith or that you trust God, but it's one thing to say it and believe it than it is to truly act on it. I'm reading a new book called "Warrior Chicks" by Holly Wagner. It's another amazing book that has really helped me during this transition time. In chapter 8 she talks about the fact that God is the boss and He is working behind the scenes and orchestrating our lives. We can trust the Creator of the universe with His creation. I tend to always look ahead and the reason I've struggled so much in the past few months is because I have worried and stressed over tomorrow and the next few

It's Tough Being a Woman

So, I've decided to change the title of my blog from "Ramblings of a Woman" to "It's Tough Being a Woman" because it is very fitting for my life and probably so many of yours!! I got the title from Beth Moore's most recent Bible Study "Esther: It's Tough Being a Woman", so I can't say that I came up with it all on my own. I had the privilege of hosting this Bible study in my home for a few months and I have to say it is the most amazing study I've gone through yet. It was so timely in my life and I know for so many in the group. I love Beth Moore - she is so real and doesn't hold anything back about what she goes through, experiences, emotions she feels, etc. I need that. I need women to be real about what is going on in their lives. I think everyone longs to connect to someone that is real and will be willing to share their heart! We are still in transition mode and I have to say it is taking it's toll on me, but it

Trusting God's Timing

God's timing is not always our timing. It's something that is so hard to learn even though I know that His timing is always perfect. Our house in Keller still hasn't sold. It has show 8 times this past week, but offers. This is our second weekend in Enid and until our house sells we've made the decision to stay in a hotel Saturday-Tuesday in Enid and then drive back home 4 1/2 hours to Keller Tuesday evening-Friday. Okay, so, not fun at all. Two kids in a hotel, eating out every meal...I'm learning a lot. A WHOLE LOT!! But, I'm trusting God, even though there are days, to be perfectly honest, I just want to scream! :) I know part of His delay is still to teach me some things. Just when I think I've learned it all, He throws something else in my way. I guess that is a part of really learning to trust Him with everything. He is sovereign and He has got it completely under control. I do know this, just still hard to put off my human natu

Learning Patience is NOT Fun

Patience is not one of my strengths, so God is really working on me right now. We went to Enid this past weekend to look for a home to rent/lease. The prices there are just crazy expensive and the choices are so limited - it is unreal. It is because it is a military town and over 100 new pilots will be coming in the next few weeks so the demand is very high for rentals. We found a home that we love and would be able to lease for a couple of years and then purchase, but after looking at our budget we just decided that it isn't wise for us to have a mortgage payment and take on a rent payment. So, starting next weekend (June 5th) we will probably stay in a hotel in Enid Friday-Monday and stay at our home in Keller Tuesday-Thursday until our home sells or some sort of schedule like that. This is NOT my first pick - at all, but God is in control. I'm learning to be patient - it is a daily thing I have to work on. Keep us in your prayers. I know God has the buyer for our hous

My Family


We are Moving!

I am so sorry that I have not blogged in awhile. Life has been crazy! I want to fill you all in on what is going on in our lives because so many of you have asked. I know many of you have been praying for us and we want to thank you SO much! God answers prayers!! For the past 3 years we have had the privilege of being able to start a church in Roanoke, TX with my uncle & aunt who are the lead pastors. We have been volunteering as the Community pastors and it has been one of the most incredible experiences of our lives. New Day Church will forever be engraved in our hearts and will always be huge part of us. We have grown so much personally and it has been incredible watching others' lives changed. Ricky & Joni (my uncle and aunt/Lead Pastors) have been tremendous mentors to us and we have learned so much under their leadership. Words cannot express our gratitude to them. Back in January of this year we did a 21 day fast with our church to start off the New Year. During

Every Parent's Prayer

I have another story to share with you about my 6 1/2 year old, Abbie. I know it is every parent's prayer that what we teach them will sink in, that the prayers we pray over them will be seeds that will sprout. Abbie is only 6, but she blows me away sometimes. There is a little boy in her class that is kind of the class bully. Abbie said that he told her that he doesn't go to church, so she has been praying for him. After church on Sunday we went to lunch and she wanted to pray over the meal and this was her prayer... "Lord, bless this food, keep our family safe, and Lord I pray for Fred that You will come into his heart and that he won't pick on anyone anymore, but Lord, if he has to pick on someone, that he will pick on me.". Okay, who prays that??? Mel and I were just crying at the table listening to her pray this!! She told us that she would rather him pick on her than the other kids b/c she doesn't want him to hurt the other kids. WOW!!!! It defin

Such a Good Girl!

So, I thought I would share something that Abbie did on Tuesday night that was super sweet. Mel does bedtime routine with the girls every night. Around 8pm he tucked Emma in bed, then went to Abbie's room and tucked her in and was going to read her book with her for a little while. Emma called out for him so he told Abbie to continue reading and he would be back in a few minutes to turn off the light and kiss her goodnight. Well, he got done with Emma and completely forgot about Abbie until about 11:30pm when he heard Emma having a coughing fit, so he went upstairs to check on her and noticed that Abbie's light was still on. She was still awake, lying in bed, reading the same book!! He asked her if she knew what time it was and she said no and told him that she was still waiting on him! She spent three hours laying in bed patiently waiting for her daddy to come turn off the light and kiss her goodnight. She didn't get up and play - she just laid there patiently waitin

Big Changes

Wow, so yesterday I wrote about how God had told us to sell our house and today we know why. Mel's CEO came in town today and closed the doors on the Ft. Worth office. Mel and the 3 others in his office are now headed home to find other jobs. I have to admit that this morning I had a panic attack - shaking, hyperventilation, etc. But, after talking to my mom, my uncle and a few friends I felt the peace of God come over me. I'm not going to say that I'm not freaking out a little still - that is human nature, but I am trying to put my emotions aside and reflect on all that God has done for us and how faithful He has been to us the past 10 years. He has brought things back to my memory on how he has provided. Like when we had only been married one month and we decided to leave the church we were on staff at and had to move in with in-laws. How when we left our church in Jenks and had just found out that I was pregnant with Abbie. We had no place to go, but God sold ou

Selling Our House & Need Your Input!

Wow, I'm on a roll - two blog posts in one day!! I need some suggestions though and figure that some of my friends might be able to give some! Back in January, we did a 21 day fast with our church. During that time God spoke to Mel and I about several things, but one of the things that He asked us to do was to sell our house. Not an easy thing for us to do b/c we LOVE our house - we built this house 2 1/2 years ago - picked out EVERYTHING, but we know He is asking us to be obedient, so we are trusting Him!! So, over the past few months I've been SLOWLY getting it ready. The past 3 years I haven't been the most organized, so I've had to throw away a lot of stuff, make piles of garage sale stuff, and organize things I'm keeping. I'm almost done doing that and we are planning a garage sale in the next few weeks. So, there are several things that I need your suggestions on: We interviewed 3 realtors and all of them said that because we live in a newer home

My Grandma: An Amazing Woman

Once again, it has been awhile since I have written. It seems that I am on a one post a month routine. I figure it is time to update all of you on my life. It has been a crazy couple of weeks. My grandma, JoAnn Edwards, is one of my heroes and someone I admire greatly. I've always been very close to her and have so many amazing memorie s with her and my grandpa, Dr. Charlie Edwards. My grandpa passed away 3 years ago February. That was very hard, but there was still comfort in knowing that I still had my grandma to see and talk to. My grandma and grandpa moved from Marfa , TX to Granbury 3 years ago (2 weeks before my grandpa went to be with the Lord) so that they could be closer to my mom. I didn't get to see her as much as I would've liked, but I did get to see her a lot more than if she still lived 8 hours away. My grandmother was in the hospital for 20 days in February with pneumonia and COPD . She was released on Saturday, February 28 th to go back to her

My Mom was Superwoman

Since I've had kids I've really come to truly appreciate my mother, but I think over the past few days I've realized that I really do think she was Superwoman. Probably since early November my family has been sick. One of us will get better and then another will get sick - it is the vicious cycle. I got sick again on Thursday with an upper respiratory virus & sinus infection. Mel still had to go to work on Friday, so I was left to take care of myself as well as my two kiddos. He came home at 6pm and I could finally rest. Since yesterday was Saturday, I could stay in bed all day while he took care of the kids. Emma came in our room about 12:30 am this morning complaining that she didn't feel good and that her ear hurts. I was hoping Mel could stay home and take care of her today and let me sleep, but he had to go to church since he is in charge of set-up and I'm left to take care of my sick baby girl and myself. Husbands are lucky. When they get sick, the

My Girly Girls

Yesterday I took my very girly girls to the new Girly Girls salon & spa in Keller. It's a very cute gift shop & salon for little girls that has runways and dress up clothes. Abbie requested to get her hair cut to her chin, so I decided to take them both in. This was Abbie's 3rd hair cut in her life and Emma's first real hair cut. I've refused to get Emma's bangs cut b/c I hate growing them out, but Emma refuses to wear anything but a head band so her hair is always in her face. Emma LOVED getting her hair washed and cut. She was so very still and is so proud of her new do. Abbie was very excited to go to school today and show off her new cut. She looks so grown up. I love having girly girls. They come with a lot of drama, but they are SO much fun!!

Happy New Year!!

Okay, I am admittedly the worst blogger ever, but I love keeping up and reading everyone else's. I know it is time for me to add something. I can't believe 2008 is over and 2009 is here. I say this every year, but I honestly do believe that 2008 went by quicker than any other year. It really was as if I blinked and it was gone. I learned to much in 08. God brought me so far and I really learned to trust Him and rest in His peace. I find that I am reacting to things differently and have learned to submit my emotions to Him. Not that I have arrived, but I'm glad that I have finally learned that Him being in control is way better than me trying to be in control. I believe that there are great things in store in 2009 for our family, for my business, for our church and for all of you reading this blog. Mel and I made the decision to join our church in a 21 day corporate fast. We are doing the Daniel Fast, so basically - no sweets, no bread, no caffeine and no meat.