I Want a Wild Ride

Our Ladies Bible Study at our church has just started a 9 week study using Beth Moore's DVD series "The Inheritance".  We just started this past Monday and I've been processing and praying about what she talked about for the past few days.  She asks us on the video "Do you want a wild ride?" And, then she says, "Well, it's not a wild drive, it's only a wild ride if someone else is driving."  I've thought about that statement and thought about my own life.  You know, I can tend to be a control freak in certain areas of my life. :) I think we all have tendencies to hold on to control.  It feels safe.  We often feel like we know what is best for our lives and if we give someone else the steering wheel they may take us somewhere that is uncomfortable.  I like comfort, I like to know where I'm going and what time I'm going.  I've always been a dreamer and a goal setter.  I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up, what I would need to do to get there, I knew what I wanted my life to look like 10 years down the road and had a plan to accomplish it.  I've always said "I want God's will", but it hasn't always been easy letting Him sit in the drivers seat.  I don't think I'm the only one who struggles with this.  I think there are many out there just like me.  We sit in the driver's seat and say "Okay, God, I want your will, now tell me where to go and I'll drive us there." We want his will for our lives, but we still want some control over it.  We still want a say in the matter. We want to stay in the driver's seat and let him just give us the directions and then we will decide if those directions are the best way for us.  We don't want to let him take the wheel. 

Today I was reading a book called "Chasing Daylight" by Erwin McManus and in Chapter 5 he talks about Risk. I thought that the following fits perfectly with what Beth Moore was talking about. 



The inversion of this framework has clearly affected our Western faith.  We have concluded that God promises safety.  Those who are outside  God's will, will experience danger.  You cannot have risk and guarantee safety.  Our pop theology has eliminated the place for risk and insulated us with a comfort-and-security theology.  This view runs counter to what is found in the Scriptures.  I want to reiterate the fact that the center of God's will is not a safe place, but the most dangerous place in the world.  God fears nothing and no one.  God moves with intentionality and power.  To live outside God's will puts us in danger, but to live His will makes us dangerous.  When we begin to seize our divine moments, we do not begin to live risk-free, but instead become free to risk.

I have bought into this theology before, haven't you?  We begin to believe that God's will doesn't involve any risk or failure.  That God's will is safe and comfortable and looks picture perfect. I've thought that many times.  I do not like to fail.  I've always been an overachiever. I'm hard enough on myself without anyone else pushing me.  My parent's never had to tell me to make good grades, I pushed myself.  In business, I didn't have to have someone push me to get going b/c I was pushing myself hard enough.  I'm a visionary and very goal driven and I like to succeed.  Who doesn't?  So, when failure comes my way, I tend to question if I missed God's will or not because God's will doesn't involve failure, does it?!  


Over the past few years I've learned a lot and I've reflected a lot on the past.  I've failed a lot.  We've had ministry failures, business failures, financial failures, etc.  But, looking back I see how those failures have shaped my character and who I am today. I see how God has used those failures as a teaching tool.  Gosh, I am so thankful for those failures.  Erwin McManus says in Chasing Daylight "It becomes more than obvious the longer you walk with God  that His teaching environment for us really is life.  And allowing us to fail is not a punishment from God, but a part of God's process for shaping who we are."


Even though I do not like getting out of my comfort zone and sometimes throwing out the map I've created for myself, I ultimately want to live a life of risk.  I want to let God take the driver's seat and be free to risk.  I don't want to live a boring life. I want to live an extraordinary and exciting life.  I think each of us, if we dig deep enough, have a desire in us to do more and to be more.  We can't fully tap into all that God has for us unless we let him sit in the driver's seat.  I want a wild ride! I want to throw caution to the wind and let him take the wheel even though I won't know every twist and turn that lies ahead.  I want to reach out and take part in the Inheritance that each and every one of us can take part in.  Don't you?

Comments

B said…
Buckle up Kim. When you tell God you want a wild ride, He's sure to deliver:-)

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