Being in the wilderness is never any fun, well, unless of course there is a spa involved. But, in my wilderness experiences I haven't had many spas show up. I've been in the wilderness in some areas of my life lately and sometimes it is lonely, frustrating and my nature cries out "God, rescue me now, please, LORD, do it now, this is too hard!", but it doesn't always turn out that way, in fact, very rarely does He ever rescue me immediately. I've learned that He doesn't always take us the easy route because He wants to grow us & protect us from future harm. He wants us to get to the place where all we need is Him.
It is so amazing to me that when I experience times like this that He always shows His love & His presence to me through the words of a song, pages of a book or a blog, someone encouraging me or hearing a message that I feel is for me. An example of that is when I was picking out a new Bible study for our women's group to start this Fall, I kept coming back to Priscilla Shirer's "One in a Million" study even though I didn't know much about it. We are now into week 2 and I told the group as we were closing on Monday that I felt like God had Priscilla Shirer prepare that specific lesson just for me on the very day I needed it most. Do you ever have those moments when you hear a message and you just feel God whisper "this is for you, I haven't forgotten you, I haven't forsaken you, I know where you are, I'm here and I love you". That happened to me on Monday. Even though He didn't bring me out of the wilderness that day and I am still there even now, I know without a doubt that He is here with me.
Psalm 46:1-3 says "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling."
Priscilla Shirer said that we have to trust that He knows more about the wilderness more than we do. I want God to do the miraculous in my life and I realize that I can't see miracles unless there is an impossible situation that I can't figure out for myself.
We all come to a point in the wilderness where we have to ask ourselves, "will I go with Him even when this part of the journey is not what I want?". I definitely don't enjoy portions of this part of my journey & I can often think of better ways I would do it, but the fact is His ways are higher than mine and I do not want to navigate this desert alone. I know He has the map & He can see what I cannot see. So, I wait, I trust in Him, I seek Him more than I seek deliverance from this desert place because He is all I need and I know He will deliver me in His timing.
Thank you Priscilla, for following God's leading and writing "One in a Million". I'm so very grateful.
I LOVE music and I want to end this post today with this song that I've just been playing over and over and over again in the recent months. It's my prayer.