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Do Not Worry

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Earlier this year I attended Pink Impact at Gateway Church in Southlake, TX with my mom, my dear friend & her mother in law.  It was a 4 day getaway for me to just be & receive. I needed it desperately, because it was just a few months prior that Mel told me that he knew that he knew that the Lord would be transitioning us soon to more of a lead pastor role.  As you know by my previous post , I was a little resistant at first. :)  I was doing my best to trust that Mel had heard from God and even though I knew in my spirit that he had...I was just consumed with worry.   I was worried about where the Lord would move us. I was worried about when He would move us.  I was worried about making the wrong decision. I was worried about moving my girls to a different school. I was worried about leaving the people we had grown to love so much here in Enid. I was worried about finances.  I was WORRIED. You get the picture.  During one of the sessions of the conference there was a

The Masengale's Have News!

NO, I am NOT pregnant! :) Our family is actually moving to OKC to be Campus Pastors of the main campus in OKC (or Warr Acres) of Victory Church !  This decision has come after MUCH prayer, fasting (and tears). Back in January of this year Mel & I did a 21 day fast to pray for our family, church, etc.  During that time Mel came to me and told me that the Lord had spoke to him very clearly that He was calling him to more of a lead pastor role.  I'd like to say that I received that news well, but I'll be honest...I was a little stubborn and initially resisted that news.  We had really settled into life here & I had gotten very comfortable in my role here in Enid. The people here have become some of our dearest friends and more importantly...family.  The most difficult part of ministry for me is getting attached to people & then having to leave.  I also REALLY hate moving!! We had our women's conference, Illuminate, shortly after the fast and God used Lisa Bev

Resolution Revolution Book Club

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  Yesterday morning I was sipping my coffee and catching up on tweets on Twitter {you know, doing the important stuff}.  A tweet popped up from Priscilla Shirer that caught my eye.  She was announcing her Resolution Revolution Book Club & it was starting in 10 minutes.  I really had no clue what it was about, but I knew if Priscilla was doing it, then I wanted to be a part of it.  Side note: If you've never participated in one of Priscilla's Bible Studies, heard her speak or read her books...let me tell you, you are missing out! The first time I heard her I thought "oh my word! she is me, I am her"...she read my mail.  I identify with so many things she says {I'm convinced we are soul sisters}. She is a Bible teacher, a mom, a wife...she is the real deal! Okay now that you know my thoughts about Priscilla, back to the Book Club! I quickly visited her site goingbeyond.com to read up on what this book club was all about, downloaded the book &qu

Mini-Makeover Challenge

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For all of you Pastors, Pastor's Wives & Women in Ministry out there, this is a very cool opportunity to bless a family in your community with a $2500 mini-makeover for their home! Leading & Loving It is teaming up with Extreme Makeover: Home Edition for this Mini Makeover Challenge !     You have until Monday, September 19, 2011 noon PST to submit your idea & profile of the family you want to help.   For those of you here in Enid, I would love to see PINK {Enid First Women} be the ones to win this for a family here locally! For over a year now we have been dreaming of an opportunity to be able to make a home makeover happen for someone in need & I believe this could be it!! Let's seize this opportunity so that we can BE THE LOVE to a family in our community.

Remembering Marianne

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Today marks 1 year that my dear friend, Marianne Delcambre, passed from this life here on earth to life in eternity. It has brought much joy to my day today, as well as a few tears, as I've reflected back on the years I was privileged to call Marianne friend.  Marianne was one that could cause the darkest and dullest of atmospheres to come alive with love and laughter. To prove it, here are a few pics of her during our college years while living in our apartment... Yes, those are hair clips in her eyes! She was truly one of the most beautiful women I've ever known...inside & out.  Over the years she would cause me to laugh till my stomach hurt and would cry with me when I was brokenhearted.  In more recent years she was a confidant for me during the joys & trials of adulthood, ministry & parenting.  She understood my world & I understood hers.  Friends like that aren't always easy to come by.  She coined the term "bipolar express" for days

Hope & Confidence

But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence. Jeremiah 17:7 I read this verse this morning during my quiet time and it's just been rolling through my mind all day. It's easy to put our hope and confidence in things or people.  It requires faith on our part to trust in God, which is not always the easiest thing to do.  I've so been there! If you've read my past blog posts then you know some of my story.  In the past I've put my hope and confidence in a job or a person only to leave me disappointed, disillusioned and discouraged.  The Lord is the only one who has never failed me. He is the only one who knows what lies ahead and gives me a "future and a hope" (Jer. 29:11).  Maybe today you feel like you are in a dark place...you feel like there is no hope.  Your situation may look bleak.  Maybe you are putting your hope & trust in someone or something other than God.  Maybe you feel the only person you can

Little Eyes Are Watching

Not too long ago I was gently reminded how much influence I truly have in the lives of my girls and that they really watch and soak up my every move.  I had unloaded a load of laundry out of the dryer and placed it in the living room floor.  I was in the middle of cooking dinner so my 5 year old asked me if she could fold the laundry for me.  I said “sure” even though I knew that I would have to refold it later. After a few minutes, I finished up what I was cooking and came to see her progress.  She had folded a few t-shirts and had decided she had done her duty, so I sat down to finish the rest.  Well, I love the smell of fresh laundry and I have this habit (some may call it OCD) when I’m folding t-shirts to smell each one before folding it.  I do it without even thinking about it…it’s second nature.  Not realizing that Emma was intently watching me…she said “oh, mommy, I didn’t realize that I was supposed to smell it before I folded it”.  I looked at her with this perp

Commitment to Reshape It All

Alright girls, I've decided to join in on this 65 day commitment to Reshape It All.  Reshaping It All is Candace Cameron Bure's latest book about her battle with food, bulimia and how she has embraced a healthier lifestyle and outlook on weight. If you read my last post, you know that after my youngest was born I went through a dark time and thus my battle with food began.  While I didn't acknowledge back then that I was an emotional eater...I was.  I gained 50 lbs causing my self-esteem to go in the toilet. {And, if I'm going to be completely honest even when I was a size 2 or 4 as a teenager and in my early 20s I still had a very distorted image of what I looked like.} I blamed my weight gain on hormones, etc...not seeing it for what it really was until about 2 years ago.  For over a year now I have kept my weight off, but at times it is still very much a battle for me to keep the commitment to stay healthy when we live a busy lifestyle and also not go to the pan

Moms...You Aren't Alone!

To all of you momma's out there...this post is for you!  I have a lot of dear friends who are in a battle right now in their journey of Motherhood and they need our help.  I'm asking for your tips on what helps you stay sane. These beautiful ladies are struggling...struggling with depression, insecurities, anxiety, frustration, loneliness, struggling in their marriages, and the list can go on.  Being a mom is hard! My heart goes out to these girls because I too have been there.  About 4 years ago I walked through one of my darkest times as a mom, but no one really knew it except those that lived with me & a few select friends.  From the outside I appeared to have the perfect life.  We were serving the Lord by planting a church, we had a beautiful large new home, nice cars, I was successful in business, I had great friends, a good marriage, and two of the cutest daughters you've ever seen.  That's the picture everyone saw.  But, on the inside was a different story.

Kicking & Screaming

Have you ever prayed for God's will, but then when He revealed His will for you, you were convinced that He must be misunderstood because that is not exactly the plan you had in mind?  And, maybe you eventually agreed to it, but you threw a big adult temper tantrum first?  None of you have probably ever reacted that way.  You have probably always reacted with humble & immediate obedience, haven't you?  Well, I would like to be able to say that I've always reacted in a contrite manner, but unfortunately my responses haven't always been so pretty.  In May of 2006 Mel and I left our full time ministry position to help my uncle & aunt plant a church in Roanoke, TX.  Mel had a full time sales job and worked at the church without pay.  In January of 2009 Mel & I participated in a 21 day fast with our church. During that fast God laid it on our hearts to move back into full-time church ministry. But, we drug our feet for several months because we loved our church

Clean House

Every Wednesday night we host a small group in our home and every Wednesday when I get off work at 4pm it is a mad dash to get the house clean.  Carpets get vacuumed, magazines get neatly placed on the coffee table, tile gets swept (and mopped if needed), wood gets dusted, kitchen sink gets shined, counters get wiped down (with my favorite Mrs. Meyer's cleaner), and the coffee pot brews...filling the house with that fantastic aroma.  It takes effort to get it all clean and when our guests arrive they see a clean, put together home.  But, the truth is that my clean living room and kitchen is just the image I've portrayed to my guests of what I want them to believe the rest of the house looks like.  When they leave, I open up all of the bedrooms to see utter chaos. See, in the mad dash to get the rooms without doors clean, the rooms with doors are the holding grounds for where the stuff that was once cluttering up the living room just gets tossed into.  Rather than taking the eff

Unmasked

It's been a couple of weeks since I have blogged and just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive!  Life has been busy!! I just returned a few days ago from 4 days at Gateway's Pink Impact Conference in Southlake, TX, which was absolutely amazing.  I'm still processing all that God did in my heart, but I'm sure that there are some blog posts that will be birthed out of this past week that will be coming very soon, but for now...here is what is on my mind. Unmask (v.) "to reveal the true nature of (expose) or to remove a mask from". The word "unmask" has been rolling around in my mind and spirit the past few weeks. There are countless of people walking around with masks on...attempting to hide from others what is really going on in their lives.  We wear masks as a means to self-protect, to portray an image to others that we are more than okay and that life is good, when actually there is absolute chaos wreaking havoc in our lives.  We don&

Just Ordinary People

My husband and I host a small group in our home on Wednesday nights and tonight we started a new study by Steven Furtick called Sun Stand Still . We were asked to talk about a vision that God has given each of us for our lives, which Steven Furtick refers to as the "Page 23 Vision". (If you want to know why...you really should read the book. :)) One of the guys in our group shared his "Page 23 Vision" and at the end he said something that just tugged at my heart...something I knew needed to turn into a blog post. He said, "but, God should've picked someone a lot brighter than me". It really spoke to me so strongly because just this morning I was reading Exodus 3 & 4. Moses is tending sheep and God appears to him in a burning bush. (How cool would that be?!) God gets his attention and then tells Moses that He has chosen him to lead the Israelites out of captivity. Of course Moses, who is a shepherd, is thinking what so many of us think when God

For His Fame

If you read my blog post yesterday, you know that God has awakened some big dreams in me.  One of the things that He placed on my heart years ago was to write...to pen my story.  I have dabbled with a few blog posts here and there throughout the years...dipping my little toe in the water every now and then, but in January of this year...I felt the big nudge that now is the time to go deeper.  I'm just going to be honest with you, if that's okay. :) Like most people I know, I really struggle with why in the world He would ask me to write...why He would use ME. There are others much better suited for the job.  So, here I'll share with you some of my biggest struggles (a.k.a. excuses) because chances are you have them too: I have no clue about writing.  I'm not the best at grammar or knowing where to put the punctuation marks...even though I was in advanced classes throughout my school years (I think I forgot EVERYTHING).  My vocabulary range is also pretty limited.  I

What's Holding You Back?

Since the lovely Lisa Bevere came to our Illuminate Girlfriends Conference in January my spirit has been stirring and some dreams that had laid dormant have been awakened. There is a dream that God placed on my heart years ago...like 13 years ago! All this time I have held back from pursuing that dream because of one thing...FEAR! This is unusual for me because when I'm passionate about something, I jump in and not just with my little toe either...I jump in full body...full force...well, except for this one dream. This dream is so big it scares me! It's definitely a God-sized dream...it is SO much bigger than me and my small circle of influence. I have read a lot of tweets from people lately with variations of this quote and basically the idea is "if your dream isn't big enough that it scares you, then you're not dreaming big enough". Do you have any dreams like that? I have had a laundry list of excuses as to why I have held off on pursuing the drea

Why Lent? I'm Not Catholic

As many of you know, today is Fat Tuesday and tomorrow, Ash Wednesday, kicks off 40 days of Lent.  I've read a lot of Facebook and Twitter posts the last few days from people who are participating in Lent and then some from others who are maybe being a bit critical and questioning why an evangelical Christian would participate.  I had never even considered practicing Lent until last year, simply because, well, I was ignorant.  I thought it was only something that my Catholic and some of my Methodist friends participated in.  I grew up in a Pentecostal church where Lent was never talked about nor practiced.  My eyes were not really opened to it until a dear friend & one of my mentors, Becky Hennesy, began Facebooking and Tweeting last year about how they were encouraging their church in Cedar Hill, TX to participate in Lent.  Because they took that step last year... it is simply amazing the testimonies that have come out of their church and community from it! Lent is all about

l'amitié {friendship}

The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had. Author Unknown Today after having coffee with a dear friend, I was inspired to write this post. Friendship is something that I cherish deeply and is something that I need. I have been blessed with the most amazing friendships. I have wonderful friendships that come from every phase of my life...high school, college and adulthood through business and ministry. The friendships I appreciate the most are the ones where maybe we haven't spoken or seen each other in weeks, months, maybe even years, but once we meet up for a phone call, Skype chat or coffee it is like we haven't skipped a beat. These are the friends that I can tell pretty much anything to...the ones that know me the very best...the ones that laugh when I laugh and cry when I cry. These kind of friendships often take time to bloom and then sometimes th

Keeping First Things First

I remember when I started getting the baby itch after Mel and I had only been married 2 years.  We got a puppy thinking that would suffice, but I still wanted a baby...a sweet little baby!  I have to admit, I had a very idealistic image of what it was going to be like for us.  Doesn't every new mother?  I remember being critical of other parents before I had my own children...I said many things like "my kids will never eat in my car" or "how can they let their house stay so messy" or "my kids will never act like that".  I was clueless! Never say never, right? :) July 24, 2002 is when our first little girl entered our world.  When they placed her in my arms, I remember thinking how absolutely perfect she was and then at some point soon after, it hit me...wow, I'm now responsible for a life that is not my own!  Not only was I responsible for her life in general...feeding, clothing, bathing, etc, but I was responsible for teaching her

I Give Up!

It is 2011...the beginning of a new decade!  Typically during the first week of the New Year, I would have joined with the millions of other people to make out my list of New Year's resolutions.  I'm a goal setter, a dreamer, a visionary...I like to make a plan.  There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, right?  No, not really.  Setting goals, dreaming, making plans...those are all really good things...things we should do. However, as 2011 rolled around I felt like I was supposed to do something different.  I felt like I was supposed to put my goals, my dreams and my agendas on the back burner and surrender.  Surrender to what God wants for me.  Surrender to His dreams & plans for me...to let Him pen my 2011.  As He reveals His plans, then I will write them down. The hard part about surrender (for me anyways) is that I can't see the future, nor am I in control of it. I'm an admitted control freak about some things. :)  I'm a mom & mom's struggle wit

Illuminate

(v.) il.lu.mi.nate to lighten, to brighten, shine, glow It's been a week since we wrapped up our very first women's conference at EFA, Illuminate Girlfriends Conference . I am still in awe of what God did. It will be a weekend forever imprinted in my mind and my heart.  It was the beginning...the beginning of a journey of freedom for some who had been in bondage for a very long time, the beginning of God's daughters in Enid, OK taking their rightful place in His kingdom, the beginning of restoration for many to their families & spouses, the beginning of something that our finite minds really cannot grasp.   It was an awakening. An awakening to be the change, to be the difference in this dark world.  It was an awakening to be all that God has called us to be!  The lovely & fierce, Lisa Bevere , was with us. Truly a divine appointment...no mistake about it.  Lisa is the real deal...she is authentic...she is passionate.  Lisa spoke to the daughters, the mothers and

Devoted

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This morning I was feeling a bit anxious about some things, so I turned on my praise & worship playlist on iTunes and just spent some quiet time in God's presence. One of my favorite songs, The Stand by Hillsong United, came on. I've listened to this song at least a thousand times, but today as I listened to the words, tears just began to stream down my face...in absolute wonder & awe of what God has done for me. Over the years, friends & family have watched me & asked why I am so devoted to ministry and to Christ. This song pretty much sums up the response for me. Christ gave it all. He gave his life. He took my shame, my sins, my imperfections, my brokenness, my bondage and gave me freedom...He gave me life. He took everything that was ugly and made it beautiful. He gave me a fresh start. When other people cast judgment on me and pointed fingers at me, He looked at me with love and called me beautiful, beloved, He called me daughter. Romans 5:6

Free to Be You!

This morning, I was reading 2 Cor. 3:17-18 & a devotional that went along with it. The author, Bob Hamp, said "Freedom isn't about our ability to overcome obstacles; freedom is about becoming the fulfillment of God's design. It's not what we do: it's who we are...When you realize that you aren't made to be like anyone but yourself, you become free from the stranglehold of trying to be like others." Let's not try to conform people into who we think they should be or try to conform ourselves to look like someone else. Instead, let's discover the uniqueness of who God says that we are and who He created us to be. There is no one like you! Be YOU!