I Give Up!

It is 2011...the beginning of a new decade!  Typically during the first week of the New Year, I would have joined with the millions of other people to make out my list of New Year's resolutions.  I'm a goal setter, a dreamer, a visionary...I like to make a plan.  There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, right?  No, not really.  Setting goals, dreaming, making plans...those are all really good things...things we should do. However, as 2011 rolled around I felt like I was supposed to do something different.  I felt like I was supposed to put my goals, my dreams and my agendas on the back burner and surrender.  Surrender to what God wants for me.  Surrender to His dreams & plans for me...to let Him pen my 2011.  As He reveals His plans, then I will write them down.

The hard part about surrender (for me anyways) is that I can't see the future, nor am I in control of it. I'm an admitted control freak about some things. :)  I'm a mom & mom's struggle with this.  (C'mon...I know I"m not the only one.)  I constantly have "what if" scenarios running through my head...I constantly think 10 steps ahead, but everyday I have to surrender my "what ifs" and steps to God.  I have to surrender my dreams, as well as my fears.  I have to line up my desires with His.  I have to surrender control...ultimately to receive freedom.
Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?"
Luke 9:23-25 (The Message)
God's plans for us are so much bigger than the plans we have for ourselves.  Whenever I try to slide back into the driver's seat, I inevitably mess things up...and not just a little bit...I mess things up big time! The times that I've taken back control, I've ended up in debt, overweight, hurting & depressed...just to name a few.  Have you been there too?  By me being in control...my decisions not only affect me, but my husband, my children, my friends and those that I lead.  But, when we sacrifice...when we give ourselves fully over to Christ, it is then that we truly find ourselves.  It is then that we are able to be the wife, mother, daughter, friend & leader that He has created us to be.  When we surrender and submit ourselves to our Creator, it is then and only then that He is able to give us a life that we could only imagine...actually above and beyond what we could imagine.  He is then able to reveal what our divine destiny is...what He created us for...our purpose!

Surrender is a daily process.  A daily act.  The NIV version of Luke 9:23 says "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me." (emphasis added) It is a daily choice.  Each and every morning when we wake up, we get free will to decide whether or not we are going to surrender to His will or take back control. When we surrender, He often shows us things about ourselves that we don't necessarily want to see or deal with...it can be a difficult and painful process. BUT, if we will allow Him to chisel away those areas...there is always something beautiful that comes out of it...always! It is so worth it, I promise!

Surrender.
Undone.
Sacrifice.
Broken.

These are the words that I pray every morning when I wake up....because it is only when we give up that He can come in & transform us. I want less of me and more of Him.  I want His plans for my life above my own.

I give up!

Comments

Anonymous said…
Kim, this is fantastic & obviously inspired! Thank you for taking the time to pen it! Looking forward to what God has planned for the Butler family this year!

Blessings! Lisa Butler

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