What's Holding You Back?

Since the lovely Lisa Bevere came to our Illuminate Girlfriends Conference in January my spirit has been stirring and some dreams that had laid dormant have been awakened. There is a dream that God placed on my heart years ago...like 13 years ago! All this time I have held back from pursuing that dream because of one thing...FEAR! This is unusual for me because when I'm passionate about something, I jump in and not just with my little toe either...I jump in full body...full force...well, except for this one dream.

This dream is so big it scares me! It's definitely a God-sized dream...it is SO much bigger than me and my small circle of influence. I have read a lot of tweets from people lately with variations of this quote and basically the idea is "if your dream isn't big enough that it scares you, then you're not dreaming big enough". Do you have any dreams like that?

I have had a laundry list of excuses as to why I have held off on pursuing the dream, but if I'm going to be extremely honest with myself...it all boils down to fear. Fear of what people will think, fear of inadequacy...Fear. That's it. So...I've been putting it off & holding back. God clearly spoke to me at Illuminate that the time is now...no more holding back...no more putting it off. So, since then I've revealed my dream to several people that I respect & trust and have had confirmation after confirmation that this dream isn't one that I'm creating in my head, but it definitely is one that God has placed on the inside of me.

Since that weekend in January I've been really pressing in & focusing on the renewing of my mind by spending daily time reading God's word & taking time to let Him reveal Himself to me. See, the dreams that we have that are bigger than ourselves require that we walk in an intimate relationship with the One who gave it to us. The enemy wants to do everything he possibly can to keep us from pursuing our dreams, so what does he mess with the most? Our minds.

The verses that have been rolling over and over in my mind for weeks now is Romans 8:31-37:
What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written 'For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered'. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
Did you get that? "IF OUR GOD IS FOR US, WHO CAN BE AGAINST US?" "WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS THROUGH HIM". That's so amazing!!  These are verses that I have quoted & heard so many times throughout my life, but they are now activated in me.  I know that if God placed a dream in my heart, that nothing and no one can come against me!

People...we are only given one life here on this earth and I'm determined to live it well and give it all I've got. I want to make a difference...I want to leave my thumbprint on this earth. I don't want to be one of those people who live with such tremendous regrets because they exchanged the dreams that God had placed on the inside of them for comfort. God didn't call us to live a life of safety, but to live a life of risk. Just look at His own life...He risked everything so that we could LIVE!

Being in the ministry, people have shared their many regrets with me... "I was called to be a missionary, but....", "God told me to lay down my job to pursue..., but...", "I had a dream to adopt and rescue orphans, but...", "God asked me to use my business for his Kingdom, but..." Maybe you can relate & you too have a dream that God has placed on your heart and you are holding back.

Before I end this post, I want to share with you a few books, other than the Bible, that I've been reading that are encouraging me a great deal. They are must reads for sure...

Sun Stand Still by Steven Furtick
Lioness Arising by Lisa Bevere

So, what's holding you back? I would love for you to comment on this blog.  I want to hear what your God sized dreams are and what's keeping you from pursuing them!  Maybe, just maybe if we link arms and encourage one another we can change the world! OR...Maybe you have already pushed through the fear and are currently pursuing your dreams...I want to hear from you too!

(No worries...I won't leave you hanging on mine for too long...it will be revealed in the next few weeks on this blog!! :))

Comments

Hi Kim! My name is Amanda. I actually came across your blog randomly through Lisa's "A Preacher's Wife" list of blogs. This blog post REALLY resonated with my heart on SO many levels. Just to give you a bit of background, my husband is a youth pastor. We live in British Columbia, Canada. We have been in ministry for two years. Since I was a young girl, I have had a genuine passion and love for the Lord, and in the last few years God has laid some big dreams upon my heart. I just finished my degree in teaching and have begun working as a primary teacher. What I'm really passionate about though is girls ministry. I have such a heart to see teenage girls find their worth and value in Christ. I guess in some ways fear is holding me back though because I know I need a steady job to help us pay off school loans. However, I can't get this dream/desire off of my mind. I am active in our youth ministry with the girls and my small group...but I feel that God is calling me to something more in this area. He has not fully revealed that yet and I am waiting upon Him to show me what this means. I just felt compelled to share this with you because your blog really spoke to me. It is hard to share dreams with others because of fear of what they will think!! But thanks for sharing your heart. God Bless! -Amanda
Kim Masengale said…
Amanda,

Thank you so much for sharing your heart! Wow! I'm so glad you found my blog and that the post spoke to you. Know that God has put that desire in you for a reason. Having worked in youth ministry for 7 years and now in women's ministry...there is a desperate need for women who will rise up and teach young girls who they are in Christ! I will pray for you!! Please keep in touch. I would love to hear how your story unfolds!! How exciting!! Blessings, Kim

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